Testimony

Frideborg Tarot testimony

“For rebellion is like the sin of divination (…)”

1 Samuel 15:23

The Truth is a person. I was briefly introduced to Him as a teenager but our relationship didn’t blossom the way He wanted it to. Instead I got lost in the world of occultism in general and Tarot in particular. Thankfully, the Truth kept pursuing me relentlessly even after I rejected Him. Earlier this year, during the Covid-19 lockdown, I knelt at his feet and asked Him to forgive me for straying so far. 

Testimony – From Tarot to the Truth

I grew up in Sweden, in the 1970s. My grandparents were from up North and my grandmother was a psychic who did readings for her local community, reading the signs found in the grounds at the bottom of the cup. She had long since stopped doing readings by the time I was born but she would share snippets about her experience with the realm of spirits that whetted my appetite for more. Like her, I was born with the ability to see and sense the spiritual realms, and had many supernatural experiences from early on in life.

At age 15, I did my first Tarot reading and a month or two later a psychic predicted that I would become a Tarot reader one day. This seemed like a prophetic statement to me at the time, since the psychic had not asked me if I wanted a reading; he had gone into a light trance when I stepped into his shop and seemed to see right through me when he made his prediction.

This psychic prediction was made in the UK and, funnily enough, I ended up living in the UK from my early 30s onward. In my late teens, I quite fancied living in the USA but that was not to be. However, I was saved in classic Romans Road/sinner’s prayer fashion in South Carolina in February 1987, during a High School exchange year. My host family belonged to a denomination that totally rubbished the gifts of the Spirit and any kind of supernatural experience. They even went so far as to say that charismatics were all hellbound (sic!).

In spite of struggling with cognitive dissonance around the gifts of the Spirit, among other things, I remained in the Christian faith for more than ten years upon my return to Sweden. In my late 20s, I got divorced, left the church and began looking for truth in places that promised personal power and access to secret, ancient knowledge. The temptation I fell for was literally the original sin that brought about the fall of man:

“You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman. “For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

Genesis 3:5-5

A Basic Introduction to the Tarot

What is the Tarot? Some say it’s just a deck of playing cards that gained accidental usage as a fortune-telling device. Others claim ancient Egyptian origins and others still refer to it as ‘the Devil’s picture book.’

What we can say for certain is that the Tarot is a deck of 78 cards and it has a similar structure to a deck of normal playing cards, with the additions of an extra court card for each suit and 22 Major Arcana cards.

A Very Brief History

The Tarot first surfaced in the Mediterranean region in the late Middle Ages and gained particular popularity with the nobility of Italy. From there it spread to the upper echelons of French society.

Of course, not everybody could afford a Tarot deck back in the 13-1400s, since the cards were painted by hand and not yet mass produced. That all changed with the introduction of the printing press and the mass production of Tarot de Marseille style decks in the late 1400s. The earliest surviving block printed Tarot deck is from 1500.

For a few hundred years, the Minor Arcana had plain (pip) designs for the numbered cards 1-10 (with a couple of notable exceptions). The court cards had people designs for the Pages, Knights, Queens and Kings. The real ‘meat’ in terms of symbolic images was found only in the Major Arcana cards, also known as the ‘trumps’ (trionfi in Italian).

One of the earliest references to Tarot triumphs, and probably the first reference to Tarot as the devil’s picture book, is given by a Dominican preacher in a fiery sermon against the evils of the devil’s instrument. References to the Tarot as a social plague continue throughout the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries, but there [is] no indication that the cards were used for anything but games anywhere other than in Bologna.

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The French Occultists

In the 1700s the Tarot caught the imagination of French Freemasons and occultists who began to develop a totally made up history and theory of the Tarot. This is where we first see the rather fantastical claim that the Tarot comes from ancient Egypt and Thoth himself.

The work of the French occultists created overlays of meaning onto each of the cards that included Astrology, Numerology and Kabbalah. Antoine Court de Gebelin, Eliphas Levi and Etteila are probably the most famous of the French occultists of this era. They all promoted the Tarot as a tool for achieving occult knowledge. Etteila created his own version of the Tarot deck, with illustrated number cards and reversed card meanings.

Golden Dawn

Toward the end of the next century (late 1800s), the English occultists of the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, furthered the work of the French occultists by creating their versions of the Tarot. The most famous example of their occult Tarot workings is the 1910 Rider Waite Tarot deck, a.k.a the Smith Waite Tarot.

The illustrations by Pamela Colman Smith were made under the instruction of A.E. Waite and some of the imagery for the number cards was lifted from the Medieval Sola Busca Tarot, one of the few ancient decks with fully illustrated number cards. Some of the card meanings can be traced back to the French occultists and others are original to the British occultists.

Basically, all of the card meanings are the sum total of the kabbalistic, astrological and numerological correspondences for the cards. With in-depth knowledge of correspondences, it becomes possible to read the Tarot cards without the actual images. Astrology is the occult art that underpins and holds together the ‘science’ of the Tarot, as it does for all types of occult workings.

Satanic Origins?

The roots of the Golden Dawn can be found in Luciferian/Satanic Freemasonry and it was only very recently (during the Covid-19 lockdown) that I learned that the upper degrees of Freemasonry are indeed Luciferian (as are the origins of the New Age Movement). This means that the whole structure of Freemasonry, and its offshoots, is dedicated to an enemy of God’s plan for mankind, whether the lower degree members of Freemasonry are aware of it or not.

The same can be said for those who use the Tarot cards. Most of them (I used to be one of them) are not aware that the intent of the Golden Dawn Tarot cards is to disseminate Masonic/Luciferian teachings. Most readers will protest loudly that they don’t even believe in Satan or Lucifer and that any such doctrine has no bearing on their own usage of the Tarot cards.

Some (used to be me) will claim that Tarot has Christian origins, with the imagery in the trumps harking back to Medieval morality plays. While this may be partially true, at least for the Marseille style Tarot decks, since they were created in a Christian society, it is impossible to deny the presence of pagan and occult influences even in the Marseille trumps.

How Reading with the Tarot Cards Works

Some of you reading this will be familiar with the structure of a Tarot reading and some will not. Basically, the process is the same whether you are reading for yourself or for another person.

  • Ask a question of the cards
  • Shuffle, cut and fan the cards
  • Select the required amount of cards for the Tarot spread you intend to work with (usually between 3-10 cards)
  • Lay the cards out in the pattern of the selected spread
  • Interpret the cards

As a Tarot reader, you are working with the language of symbols. There is no inherent sin in the ability to interpret signs and symbols. This ability is part of normal human functioning and is even explored in the Bible in the form of dream interpretation.

However, when we consult the Tarot cards, we are doing so in a framework that excludes the concepts of grace and redemption, due to the structure and underlying philosophy of the Tarot. Furthermore, the questions asked of the Tarot are also usually of an egoic nature, such as ‘Will my ex return?’ or ‘Will I get this job?.’

Revelation

During the lockdown, I learned a lot about the New World Order and came to an understanding that the New Age is basically a creation of the cabal/NWO elite, along with some denominations falsely labelled ‘Christian.’ Basically, the Christian denominations that have done away with the concept of grace can be traced back to founders who were… you guessed it… Freemasons! JW and Mormonism are both Freemasonic creations.

To those not in the know about the NWO origins, the New Age is simply a smorgasbord of self-development tools that allow a person to ‘ascend’ and achieve their full potential which should, theoretically, result in ‘enlightenment.’ However, the blueprint for this ‘ascension’ is one entirely without the component of grace; it basically destroys man’s personal, radical relationship with his Creator, a relationship only made possible thanks to Christ’s sacrifice on the cross.

The Luciferian Blueprint

It was around the time that my understanding of the New Age agenda of the NWO began to take hold that I realised that my own practice of the Tarot was taking me further and further away from grace. I found myself on my knees, asking God to reveal the truth to me, and to show me where there is any hope for me personally and for humanity in these dark and confusing times. The answer came as a name: Jesus Christ.

When I realised that I could only recover both truth and hope through Jesus Christ, I repented and surrendered. Not long after I surrendered, I knew that my own practice of the Tarot had to be completely released and gone from my life; it was not of God but rather constituted a form of rebellion against His desire for me to lean into His wisdom and plan for my life.

Impact of the Tarot

Looking back at the impact of the Tarot in my life over the past 20 years, has it not revealed insights both in my own life and the lives of others? Yes it has. It has brought some quite incredible insights. However, it has also kept me in a holding pattern. The insights themselves were not able to move me forward because they were not of God.

I have yet to see anyone actually reach the perfection we see in The World card, the final trump, where typically a semi-nude androgyne (another goal of the NWO!) has ascended and achieved triumphal levels of ‘enlightenment.’ In The World card, the male-female figure is surrounded by four representations of the gospel—an absolute, and possibly intentional, mockery of what Jesus Christ came to do for us. There is a notable exception in the pre-occultist Visconti Tarot World card, where we instead see the New Jerusalem descending from Heaven

No Grace

The Tarot offers a cyclic recurrence of cards that show the struggles of mankind: The Devil, The Tower, Death and The Moon in the Major Arcana, along with other gut-wrenching Minor Arcana cards that indicate misfortune, struggles, apathy, despair and even disaster. “That’s just life though,” some might object. Isn’t life a mix between good and bad?

Agreed, and it wouldn’t be so bad if there were also grace in the Tarot cards… but there isn’t any, nor is there any hope of salvation. The promise of ‘enlightenment’ is false hope that moves us away from what God has already achieved for us. The blatant denial of what Christ achieved for us through his willing sacrifice is what has excluded the Tarot from my life since I surrendered it to Him.

Frideborg Tarot testimony

In my own Tarot deck that I created 15 years after leaving the church, I still wanted to see grace, so I placed the image of the cross in The Hanged Man card. I’m sharing this to let you know that once you have accepted Christ into your life, you cannot completely deny the importance of grace—You can’t unsee it. After 15 years of being apostate, I still had a longing for grace but it took the Covid-19 lockdown to bring me to my knees.

Tarot Addiction

During my journey away from God and into the world of the occult, I developed two types of addictions. Both are very common in the Tarot community. I became addicted to doing readings and I also became addicted to collecting Tarot decks; it was a never-ending quest for the perfect deck and for the reading or Tarot spread that would help me achieve success.

Looking back, I can see clearly that I was on a Tarot hamster wheel, blocking opportunity, growth and wisdom from my life. I can also see that my addiction was based on grasping for control over my life rather than trusting God.

One of my specialities was to create ‘personal development’ Tarot spreads. I created over 300 of those and a couple of hundred relationship Tarot spreads. What did all those Tarot spreads develop within me? I think it’s safe to say that they developed a strong tendency to navel-gaze and to keep the focus on my own desire rather than God’s desire for living to my full potential.

I find it kind of sad how people in the Tarot community just make fun of their addiction to the Tarot. Addiction of any kind is no joking matter. Is it okay that you are addicted to something that is keeping you in a holding pattern and stunting your personal growth?

Wisdom

When I started diving back into the Bible last month, I was like a thirsty person finally finding a well, after a long walk through the desert. Here was God’s wisdom waiting for me, though I had rejected it all those years ago. There is wisdom in God’s Word of the kind that reaches the marrow of your being. Once you read (or listen) to it with an open heart, willing to exchange your own way for God’s, you will be astounded!

Can there be growth without grace? I can say a definite ‘No!’ after trying so hard for the past 20 years. Without grace, there is not only a complete lack of growth, there is also a lack of hope.

Know that wisdom is such to your soul; if you find it, there will be a future, and your hope will not be cut off.

Proverbs 24:14

Tarot for Entertainment?

Not long ago, I came across a YouTube Tarot reader who claimed to be a Bible-believing Christian. She said that she just reads the cards for entertainment and ‘celebrity gossip.’ There are a number of problems with this statement.

Reading the Tarot ‘for entertainment’ is really no different to using a ouija board for entertainment; it opens gateways to the spirit world because you are consulting something outside yourself to provide answers but you don’t know what or whom you are opening up to.

People who claim they use the Tarot with just their own imagination and intuition, not relying on spirit guides, would deny the reality of the statement above but it doesn’t make it any less true. If you go looking for answers with tools that act as portals for the spirit world, you will get ‘spirit guidance,’ whether you refer to it as purely your own intuition or not.

Ignorance is bliss… for demons

The spirits don’t mind hiding behind our ignorance of spiritual warfare–they actually prefer it that way, as long as they can manipulate and influence our lives to move further and further away from God’s grace.

Gossip

If we use the cards to gossip about others, we are going directly against God’s will for our lives.

He who goes about as a slanderer reveals secrets,
Therefore do not associate with a gossip.

Proverbs 20:19

Freedom

If you are reading this as someone who is addicted to Tarot readings by others, or who has been obsessively reading the Tarot for yourself, please know that you don’t have to stay stuck in a holding pattern for the rest of your life. In hindsight, I obviously wish I wouldn’t have spent the past 20 years of my own life this way, but I hope my testimony can help you see that there is a way from Tarot to the Truth; His name is Jesus and he said this about Himself…

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”

John 14:6-7

If you need someone to talk to about your own Tarot involvement, please feel free to get in touch. At the time of writing this, I don’t claim to have all the answers about, for instance, where the line is drawn between divination and Biblical casting of lots, but I am seeking answers from the Source of all truth through fasting, prayer and studying God’s Word. Thank you for reading this far if you made it all the way to the bottom of the post. I love you and I’ll be here for you if you need my help.

ETA 14 June 2020: So I’m two weeks into a Daniel Fast and felt prompted to share some of what I’ve learned so far about divination and casting of lots from a Biblical perspective.

In Him

Frideborg