You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles? Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit.
~ Matthew 17:16-17
The Bible is full of pithy wisdom. I’m not using the quote because I’m hoping that you will convert to Christianity; I’m using it because it is the first quote that sprang to mind when I was examining myself and the leap of faith I have taken over the past week or so.
You see, I had to take a leap of faith – it was that or fall into the pit of despair which I’d pretty much made from my own resentment, anger, pain, sorrow, bitterness and hurt. The fruit that was growing on my tree tasted bitter in my mouth. I was starting to feel ashamed to offer it up. It wasn’t ripe and it wouldn’t ripen… and now I know why…
You see, a tree can only be a good tree when it has healthy roots and is able to draw on sustenance and nutrients from deep within the earth. When a cheery tree tries to be a pear tree, it sends mixed signals to its roots and the nutrients don’t get to the leaves and blossoms.
For a very long time, I was a cherry tree who tried to be a pear tree. I was sensitive, psychic, claircognizant, and highly intuitive… but I had been told and shown in various ways that it wasn’t OK to be me. I bought the lie. And because I wasn’t OK with being me, I started passing this feeling of not being OK on to others in the form of judgment.
Judgment is a toxic substance that falls from the heart of the tree onto the ground and is instantly soaked up by the tree’s roots. It gradually poisons the tree. The ones who have judgment passed on them may not suffer at all but the one who passes it always suffer because it affirms the illusion of separation.
Trees aren’t isolated. They communicate with each other through their roots. But a tree that starts to pass judgment has its root cut off from the tree community. Only people are stupid enough to think they can stay connected through judgment and malicious gossip about others. Trees know better!
We can learn a lot from trees and that is probably why Jesus Christ used parables about trees in so many of his teachings.
I don’t know when it started exactly but I think it was around the week leading up to the last New Moon… I couldn’t stop crying and for a while, I couldn’t figure out why. Then I realized why: my soul was calling me home. I was ready to be a cherry tree and though I had forgotten how I was prepared to trust my inner guidance every step of the way.
One of the first steps was acting on the inner guidance to put together a chakra tarot challenge for the 3 of Cups Tarot Community. I hadn’t done proper chakra work/clearing for ages and know I was due a proper spring clean. Around the same time, I found an online course on Udemy about tapping on blocks to psychic guidance. I signed up as much for the EFT refresher (I’ve done level one locally) as for the ‘psychic’ part – which, frankly, I was skeptical about.
As I started working my way through one block after another and clearing them successfully (EFT is good like that!) I came across an offer to sign up for the Angel Intuitive course at a special offer price. This is a course I’ve been wanting to do for about a decade now. Back then it was known as Angel Therapy but for some reason, I mustn’t have been ready for it then because the opportunity never came. However, even though it was now online, it was still above what I felt I could afford but Hay House had thrown in the Certified Angel Card Reader Course as a bonus so it would have been an awesome deal had I not already taken that class.
However, as soon as I started grumbling inwardly about this, a voice said ‘Watch and wait – there will be another offer for this course on its own…’ Sure enough, a few days later, as I randomly scrolled down my FB feed, someone in one of the spiritual communities I belong to alerted me to the fact that the Angel Intuitive course was now available as a stand-alone. I got her to send me the link and excitedly signed up for the course. By now, I was 100% ready to own my psychic gifts and connect with the angelic realm once more (See, tapping really does work!).
About a day in, I get up early to listen to a couple of the lessons before the rest of the house wakes up when my sister video phones me from Sweden out of the blue on FB messenger. ‘Did I just ring you?,’ she said with a sheepish smile on her face. ‘Yep, you sure did!’
I tell her about the Angel Intuitive course and she says, ‘I can’t believe you’re doing it – I so very nearly signed up and now I wish I had,’ after I tell her how much I enjoy it and what incredible breakthroughs I’ve had in my ability to tune in and receive information from the Angels. ‘Right,’ she says, ‘I’m going to email Hay House and sign up!’
Before we hang up, I say to her ‘You do realise it was the angels who arranged this phone call?’ We giggled and hung up.
My baby sister is, like me, naturally intuitive/psychic has always been close to the angels. She was the one who introduced me to Lorna Byrne’s ‘Angels in My Hair’ as well as the work of Swedish Angel Psychic Birkan Tore… and I, in turn, introduced her to the work of Doreen Virtue. Now that we are bonding over actively working with angels, I feel as if massive healing is taking place for me in terms of being OK with being me.
It is hard to explain but I think part of it was me being so honest with my sister about how my intellect kept me safe but also, at the same time, acted as a psychic straight jacket. I had been on edge and feeling defensive for so long that I was finally ready to let go. Leading up to that last New Moon, I just wanted to surrender everything. All I wanted was peace and to feel OK with just being.
So we’re back to the cherry tree. That’s me. Those red, sweet, juicy cherries are my fruits when my roots get enough nutrients in the form of non-judgment and self-care.
How can I sound so sure of myself? Because those cherries are the fruits of the spirit. Where my ego failed so miserably, getting out of my way by tapping the blocks away and allowing the angels to step in to clear up the mess worked a treat.
I will share one of the wonderful practice readings I did during the course (with permission from my ‘guinea pig’) to show you how I’m pushing further and further out of my pear tree comfort zone to emerge as the cherry tree I am.
For this reading, we were meant to tune in and scan the aura of the seeker remotely to see who was around them. I had warned my client that I wouldn’t be connecting with departed loved ones because I wasn’t entirely comfortable doing so – The focus would be on angels, spirit guides, and spirit animals. She was fine with that. However… THIS is what happened:
As I tune in, I see Mother Mary holding her arms around the client, hands crossed over her chest. Mother Mary opens her hands and a red rose springs forth.
Next, I see archangel Azrael on her right. I am told that this is not just to bring in a departed loved one (OK, I guess we’re doing this, after all, I’m thinking) but also because my client benefits in other ways from his presence.
Next, I see my client’s father bend down and talk to Azrael. I only see his profile, a tall lanky fellow with messy hair and a slightly hunched posture. I feel this enormous wave of love that has me in tears and then I hear the simple messages of love and how proud he is of his daughter. I pass those messages along and also that I have been shown a blue butterfly which I take as a sign from my client’s father to his daughter that he is with her.
I saw more things but the only thing I was nervous about passing on is the mediumship message because I’ve only done it a couple of times before and then always based on dream communication. In one of those instances I was met with silence and it knocked my confidence and faith in these sort of things.
So I kind of pussy-footed around the whole thing and asked her if she wanted to hear the message. Then I asked her to let me describe her father. Only after she told me how spot on my description of his looks were did I feel comfortable proceeding with the messages. I also apologized for cutting the visit short because I was in overwhelm and I said to her I hoped I hadn’t offended her father.
I was lucky enough to get really good feedback in terms of the hits I had in this reading and it really humbled me. Especially since one of my colleagues at the hospital where I used to work had told me that she saw me working as a medium in the future, only three months before she herself passed away unexpectedly of a stroke.
It’s a big step to put myself out there as ‘psychic’ and to stop hiding behind the cards. It’s a big step to realize that many of my blocks stemmed from self-judgment which had led to judgment of others. It’s a big step to allow myself to let go of that heavy burden and finally forgive myself… Often, long after we have forgiven everyone else, there is one more person to forgive… It takes guts to forgive ourselves because when we do, we totally run out of excuses for being true to ourselves.
The truth is, of course, I’m not special. We are all psychic. You too. Yes, you!
If you aren’t able to own this for yourself it could be for any of the fear-based reasons below:
- You were brought up in a religious environment and taught that trusting psychic guidance was of the devil
- You were shamed for being different as a child
- You were told you were too sensitive
- You had an experience that spooked you
- You could be suffering from past life blocks
- Your ego keeps telling you you’re just imagining things
- You suffered abuse, abandonment or other trauma not directly related to your psychic experiences but severe enough to make you shut down in lots of ways
Out of the examples listed above, I found that most applied to me to quite a high degree as I was tapping my way through them. Now I’m honoring myself for the work I’ve done but in no way deluding myself to think that I’m special or have gifts bestowed on only some people.
All good trees bear good fruit… Good fruit is the fruit of the Spirit and all psychic and healing gifts are of God.
We all have to act on our own inner guidance and we don’t need to worry about the fruit that others share. We only need to concern ourselves with our own fruit being of good quality… Or another way of putting it:
Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
If it’s one thing I’ve learned through all my journeys on various Paths, it is this: It is only the journey that leads within that has the power to set us free from judgment… and when we ourselves are free, we have no need to project judgment on others. Permanent peace is a choice that I will make daily for myself from now on.
Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you.
If you, like me, are tired of judgment. You can let go now. It’s simple. Forgive yourself and move on. Then no circus is your circus and no monkeys are your monkeys, and you will have so much more time for what you actually came here to do.
Love and Blessings,
PS. The choice of a cherry tree is kind of random and kind of not… I picked cherry tree because once when I was in my early 30’s, I briefly attended a psychic development circle. I was meant to tune in and see what I could pick up on for the lady I sat next to and I kept seeing these bright red cherries and I felt really sheepish passing it on because it didn’t make any sense to me at all. The lady looked gobsmacked when I told her and said that right before the meeting she had bought a jar of cherry preserve for a friend.
Nice article. I somewhat could relate to this article. I inadvertently had a clairvoyant vision when I was 15 years old. It appeared like what they describe the third eye. I was in my room but all I could see (with my eyes closed or open) was the cabinet outside of my room. I don’t know how this happened. I used to meditate frequently during this time until my parents forbid me. Now, decades later, I still do meditation but I still wonder how that incident happened as I never experienced it again.
Thanks for sharing. If you have done it once, you can do it again. It just takes a lot of hard work and discipline. You may need to change your eating/drinking habits too… Trust your inner guidance and seek out a good learning resources if you wan to master remote viewing.
Thanks for the reply and the words of encouragement. I have been back on the spiritual exercises for the last one year and the most rigid was between December 2016 until March 3rd, 2017 where I was fasting for 18 hours daily abstaining from food and liquid. Currently, I am back on regular diet though I limit my intake to 4 slices of bread with a hot drink, eat Oats for lunch and rice for dinner at 6.30pm and if I still feel hungry at night, I take bread for supper. I would appreciate if you would kindly elaborate on the two things you mention which was i) eating/drinking habits ii) hard work and discipline. I used to have inner guidance in 1989, but I have lost it. I am trying to reconnect through meditation, Maybe I could learn something which I have not been taking into consideration.Thank you.
Only eating starch isn’t good for you. It sounds like your diet needs a serious overhaul it that is really all you eat. I suggest you speak to a nutritionist.
Thank you Lisa Frideborg for taking the time to read through my comments. Will look into your words of advice. Starting today, I am also overhauling my meditation technique for better results. Thank you once again. You are a very kind person. God bless.
Beautiful article! x
Hi Denita! Thank you 🙂 x
It’s wonderful to feel a lack of judgement for yourself (and others). I’m working on the former at the moment, too. Hope I can follow in your footsteps to find that inner peace 🙂 And I love your choice of cherries – it was my first ‘moniker’, because there was a beautiful cherry tree outside my window as a child 🙂
Thanks, Chloe. Yes it is. Have you given tapping a go? 🙂
I have in the past. In this particular instance, I’m using EMDR, which is also tapping based, though just in one spot. Both are good, it’s true! 🙂
Thanks for sharing. I must admit I’m not familiar with EMDR. Do you have a video or other resources to recommend?
It was created/discovered by Francine Shapiro, and at an accessible level she’s written: Getting Past Your Past (https://www.amazon.co.uk/Getting-Past-Your-Francine-Shapiro/dp/1609619951/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1492623258&sr=8-1&keywords=getting+past+your+past). There are also some good interviews with her on YouTube. Generally, they recommend doing anything complicated with a trained EMDR therapist, which I’m doing. It’s now the treatment of choice for war vets and other PTSD sufferers 🙂
Thanks, Chloe – Sounds interesting and I’ll check it!
I am so happy for you that you are starting to not only spread your wings wider but are also starting to see their iridesence. You are being called to a broader ministry and you are going to be perfect for it. Many, many people are going to benefit from your becoming a radiant, caring cherry tree.
Thank you, Barbara! I can’t stop radiating from the heart. It’s amazing what happens when you accept who you are and allow yourself to be at peace. Lots of love to you!
Yes, I could feel that radiating in the words of your post.
Hi there, I*m not sure what promises you are thinking I’m hoping to cash in on… I don’t have any. I’m already ‘there’ if that makes sense, in that I have let go of my blockages… and that was down to three different components (the AI course was just one of them) that one a common denominator: my willingness to release the burden I was carrying. I’m in divine service and have no designs on fame or riches. I have everything I ever wanted, right here and now. May you be blessed on your Path!
? Cashing in? I didn’t mention anything about cashing in. I meant the promise of helping others, bringing the energy to earth for some, understanding for others, and comfort to all. I doubt I had an incredibly different outlook than yours back in the day, but, who knows, I may well have. All I found was myself doing an awful lot of work that seemed to be helping less than what I had been helping before I headed in this direction. Obviously not my path 🙂
Anyway, I do feel that non-Christians are allowed a bit of a airway to complain at the moment. She’s not addressing their concerns, she is denouncing important parts of her past work, she is telling them to pray with whomever they choose to pray with mentioning Jesus of Nazareth, something non-Christians probably wouldn’t choose to do, and she has made a tonne of money from non-Christians over the years. So yes, the only one cashing in here is quite obvious. I wouldn’t even be able to use my qualifications now if I wanted to with this heavy Christian leaning. It’s just not my thing and never will be, and out of respect for other people’s beliefs, including hers, I would just leave it. I am however, allowed to be incredibly annoyed at my wasted money. This is not something you would worry about due to your Christian standing, which is fabulous, but perhaps cut the non-Christians a little slack in being genuinely disappointed.
You can do whatever you want with your qualification. Doreen never said she wanted cookie cutter Angel Therapists. Take the learning and fly in your own direction. Trust your inner guidance. I have seen angels before I did this course – they have always been part of my cosmology… but they were never at the centre for me – Christ always was… because, just as I had seen angels, I had seen him and heard his words as true. The only part that was missing for me was the trusting my inner guidance parth. May you find trust and peace and many blessings on your path. In the end, all paths take us home to God.
You can do whatever you want with your qualification.
Well, no I don’t feel that I can as a non-Christian. There are licensing what nots, as you well know, and all roads lead back to the mother ship. As mentioned, as a non-Christian, I don’t feel it’s my place to pass along her information, and I am certainly not going to start my meditations praying with Jesus of Nazareth about my chosen Goddess, Ascendant Master, or Fae Spirit.
In the end, all paths take us home to God.
To you, perhaps, but not to me. And it is ‘this’ sort of comment that takes it from a non-denominational, non-judgemental standpoint into somewhere very uncomfortable for me as a non-Christian. Anyway, I had not intended to argue, but here I am, and I shall leave it at that as there’s just nothing else to say.
Thank you for stopping by to complain and argue and remind me of what I’m not missing 🙂
Hey, you are most welcome and I do believe that thanks is completely and overwhelmingly mutual!
I’m psychic to and have been since I was a child. I have heard ” You have so lively imagination” , “Stop lying and scare your sister” “Well, that’s just pure luck that you know who’s calling, what happen” and a lot more thing to stop me. Closed down clairvoyance as a teenager when I saw to much. Have used my ability for my self mostly but if someone ask I try to help them. Have been in a circle to learn more but had to quit because of my pain. I have had a feeling that you would be psychic, but thought that maybe you haven’t discovered it yet. So happy that you now use your gift <3
Love and Hugs Jess
Thanks Jess… about time! I hope you get pain-free real soon so you can do all the things that make you happy <3
Well, pain-free is a dream…My kidney disease is so rare that most doctors don’t know what it is and there’s nearly none research about it. It’s only white women that could get it (what they know now) and it’s just a few thousand wordwide that have LPHS and nobody answers to the same treatment or medication. Some have even got a new kidney and after a while the disease is back in the new one or in the other if they had it in just one.
But I hope and pray for a miracle! I would love just to have pain free days once in a while.
If I had have this “luck” at a lottery I would have one big win, if you see to the chance to get it. So I guess I bet at the wrong casino or something.
It’s just to learn to live with it and live as good as possible.
Sending healing thoughts <3