Lately, I have been blessed with some wonderful teachings and meditations, courtesy of our local Buddhist centre. My first ever Buddhist group meditation made such a profound impression on me that I feel something finally clicked into place that changed my life forever. The pre-meditation teachings were so clear that it was impossible to misunderstand them or feel confused.
We were asked three questions and given three opportunities to contemplate/meditate on the answers.
The first question was ‘What is the mind?’
The answer was clarity.
The second question was ‘Where is the mind?’
The answer was the heart.
The third question was ‘What is the function of the mind?’
The answer was to impute.
During the first meditation we were asked to visualise or imagine the mind as space, a void. I found that a bit tricky and kept getting distracted by the constant movement I perceived within this vast space.
The second meditation lead to some kind of peak experience for me when I was instructed to drop my consciousness down into the heart. I found this relatively easy to do… and when we were told how this was like dropping a stone onto the ocean floor where everything is completely still, it totally clicked into place. I could have just stayed there forever and did not really want to return to the silly, raucous and deluded head space I’m normally in.
The third meditation helped us to just observe the objects of distractions that arose and how the mind imputes each time.
In short, we spent an hour and a half meditating on the faculties we use to meditate… Talk about mind-blowing! It was by no means my first time meditating but it was by far the most enlightening meditation experience I have ever had.
In the group discussion that followed, we talked about implementing these teachings and I expressed a wish to have a button that I could just press to drop back into that beautiful heart space. One older and wiser lady exclaimed, ‘Oh but you can have that button – just imagine it!’
So I have been using that button frequently ever since when I catch my mind imputing delusions onto the world around me. For the sake of clarity, a delusion is anything other than clarity and loving kindness. I have had to own a lot of my shadow in the days that followed and it has been a humbling experience. It has also been a liberating experience as I have done what we were instructed to do, which is to actively impute kindness on everyone we meet. Not to delude ourselves but because this is the truth. Deep down, every single living being is soft and kind.
The delusions that make us unkind cause suffering but mostly for the person entertaining delusions of anger or jealousy etc. We can always choose to not get caught up in the delusions of another and thus there is never any need for blame or divisive behaviour/speech.
Essentially, what I feel happened thanks to these very clear teachings, coupled with the meditation experience was that I finally ‘got’ the teachings of Christ concerning the Kingdom. I felt reborn in the sense that I was finally able to glimpse the original innocence of the clear, heart-centred mind which makes it possible to embody the Kingdom on Earth.
In traditional Christian teachings, the emphasis was shifted from wrong thinking (delusions) to all wrong being, which is not actually what Christ taught but which was a far more convenient dogma for the Church so that they could manipulate people out of fear of eternal damnation in hell and so forth.
Interestingly, for the Spirit Guide challenge I am currently taking part in on Instagram, the Heart Drop card from the Tantric Dakini Oracle showed up the other day in answer to the question, ‘How can I work through this karma?’ I had not worked with this deck for many years but found myself rummaging for me drawers as I felt it was the only deck in my collection that could answer this question… I’m guessing the expression on my face when this card (which I didn’t even remember being in the deck) showed up was pretty priceless…
So here I am, holding the heart-shaped jewel which was passed to us all from the wise meditation teacher I had the good fortune of meeting last week. I’m passing it on to you, along with a Tarot spread which will hopefully help you contemplate where you are at on the journey to enlightenment.
The Heart Drop Tarot Spread
1. Which is my main distraction or looping thought that is keeping my mind from clarity? This will show you a habitual thought pattern or something you constantly worry about which you may or may not be aware of. Once you have identified what this distraction is. Take a minute to observe it in your mind’s eye, then detach, aware of the fact that at any time, you have the power to become the Observer. You are not your mind and your mind is only clarity, not its distractions.
2. What is in my heart? When you take a minute to allow the mind of clarity to drop down into the heart, you could find some resistance to that much light shining into a heart that may have been painfully shut down because of the delusion that it is separate, isolated, betrayed etc. There may be heaviness which disperses slowly in the light of clarity. This is a way of detaching and observing your emotions.
3. What am I currently imputing incorrectly? How am I deluding myself? It takes courage to look within this way. Bon courage!