This morning, I received an email that left me feeling completely overcome by grief. Like Lot’s wife, I turned around and looked at the ruins behind me and realised that I have nothing. The email was absolutely lovely and that was what triggered the grief. The person who wrote the email expressed their appreciation for the work I had done in the past and described it as coming from a ‘pure and holy place’ as well as saying that it had been ‘life-changing.’
Though this is not the first communication of this nature I have received, it is the first since I was delivered from a spirit of python and stopped doing divination.
I cried out to the Lord in pain. ‘God, I gave you everything and I have nothing to offer anymore!’
So God spoke to me and said, ‘You have me. And I will restore you and raise you up. But first, you must allow yourself to grieve. It’s okay.’
The last will be first
I asked for something to hold onto from my Daily Audio Bible reading and got this from the Gospel of Matthew: “But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.” (Matthew 19:30)
I am definitely, 100% last. I have nothing. I’m 53 years old and I have nothing of value in the eyes of the world.
What was going to be my legacy, my work with the Tarot, is now in the bin. My reputation is on the scrap heap and I have no income.
But more importantly, I have no feeling of a calling or a sense that my life matters to anyone. And that truly is the killer. Now I must learn to wait for God’s perfect plan to unfold in divine timing.
In the meantime, I rebuke the spirit of defeat that says I am nothing, a nobody and my life no longer matters.
Because the truth is, I am a daughter of the King and He has a plan for my life. I just don’t know what it is yet… but watch this space! What He comes up with will be so much better than what I could ever even begin to imagine. I have God and I have faith!
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
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Hello, Lisa. I came here because I felt guided to do so and in doing so, I came across this post, in which definitely touched me. In one of my last readings you did for me, you stated “ But you are not being asked to be perfect or being held to some impossibly high standard. You simply need to keep releasing doubts and blocks to love and allow faith to carry you all the way”. That stuck with me and on this exact day—I feel you need to hear these words as much as I needed to hear them almost a year ago. You are definitely right where the Lord intended you to be, that is without a doubt. Sending you hugs and lots of love your way. And don’t forget to give yourself the grace you give to others!
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Thank you so much, Dezarae. Your comment really touched my heart with grace and healing light. God bless you!
Thank you for this Lisa, your honesty is comforting because i’ve been experiencing the same thing with demonic forces attacking me and until now i couldn’t understand why. Like you i got into tarot cards and recently stopped doing it, i wasn’t aware of the spirit of the python but it makes sense now. The more you seek answers outside of yourself and your connection to source and your higher self the more you open yourself up to negative, controlling forces. I’m starting from scratch with a new career aswell so you’re not alone in feeling like you’re stuck with nothing at the bottom. I think a lot of us light workers are at this stage in life right now, we must be patient with ourselves and practise lots of self love is what im learning.
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Thank you so much, Simone. I appreciate you and I appreciate knowing I’m not on my own in this even though I know God has my back. We are not victims, but by His grace we are victors. I’d rather lose the whole world and save my soul. Lots of love to you!