For a very long time, I struggled with the concept of energy healing attunements. Do we need them and if so, why? And why can’t we source them straight from the Divine like Mikao Usui? What’s the deal with middlemen? These doubts and internal struggles created a block that prevented me from using the gift of healing fully. I resolved a similar issue about the use of light language earlier this year. I allowed myself to let go of the association of ‘speaking in tongues.’ As you probably guessed, my blocks for both stem from religious programming.
Well, I finally resolved the issue I had around attunements in the past few weeks. This morning, I shared the following musings on Facebook, so wanted to save it here in the blog too, just in case FB deletes my page:
ABOUT ENERGY HEALING ATTUNEMENTS (Warning, very long post)
My attitude toward attunements has changed radically in the past year or so. I received my first Reiki (Dragon Reiki) attunement in 2003. At the time, I was still too traumatized for the attunement energy to have anything solid to anchor into. I did not know myself and had no real sense of self. My solar plexus chakra didn’t develop properly until much later and my heart chakra was totally out of whack.
The night after the attunement, I received a visit from one of the Black Watcher Dragons. He was just paying me a courtesy visit and checking in on me but waking up in the middle of the night with a dragon standing over you is not for the faint of heart. I didn’t pass the ‘test’ and decided to de-attune myself to those energies.
Yet I kept searching for a modality I could actually work with. I knew I was meant to be a healer and had already witnessed a couple of healing miracles that seemed to have flowed through me effortlessly. Ironically, the first of those involved a toe (just like for Mikao Usui) and a massive blister magically disappearing after the laying on of hands. The second healing miracle was giving healing to a friend who had been trying to conceive for years. Within weeks of the healing, she phoned me up and told me she was pregnant.
My Replacement ID
The problem with these two miracles (in my mind) was that they related to faith healing rather than energy healing. Yes, I had fallen into the trap and created division in my mind because–at the time–the only identity I had was that of a Christian. This became my replacement identity at the age of 17, my crutch to lean on until real healing could take place.
So when I subsequently left the church and began my quest for spiritual truth (and a solid sense of self), I kept comparing the various modalities I came across with my past experiences and found them to be lacking or incompatible in one way or another… All the while not realising that this was due to my own judgment and division within.
I added some more attunements eventually, along the way, but never respected the lineages or teachers enough to practice faithfully because I didn’t know and respect myself. And because I lacked faith. I was filled with doubt and wanted cold, hard evidence. I needed proof that attunements were actually needed when the very real miracles I had experienced happened without them.
That’s because I didn’t understand the real reason for energy healing attunements. Not only do they align us vertically–they place us firmly in the web and weft of life by aligning us horizontally with our peers. And it was the latter I resisted. My only ‘safe space’ (due to my CPTSD) was God himself. And maybe the angels. Or at least until Doreen Virtue almost ruined the angels for me by claiming they were demonic entities parading as beings of light. Thankfully, the angels themselves quickly assisted me in recovering from that.
I think I have set the stage for 2020 properly now. This was the year I returned to my safe space and Evangelical Christianity for a period of about six months until I realised that I simply could not shrink myself back to that developmental stage. It was equivalent to a full-grown person trying to crawl back into the womb.
But apparently, this was exactly what I needed to do in order to truly know and understand myself. Looking back, I began a gradual process of properly unravelling and deconstructing my beliefs in September-October 2020. And eventually, I had to (once again) face my dilemma: faith healing or energy healing? attunements or no attunements?
Time to Experiment
However, this time (having gone through my longest and darkest night of the soul), I was fearless and decided to just experiment until I found what worked. I returned to traditional Reiki. And I returned to Angel Therapy. I also added two different modalities of Angel Reiki. And I just completed my Crystal Reiki Master level attunement this morning. Now I know I’m meant to create my own lineage because I know myself and what works.
And I will be using the symbols I channelled more than a year ago, along with the symbols in the other systems I’m attuned to that resonate. When the healing symbols came to me a year ago, I wasn’t entirely sure how to use them or in what context. I had to go through a long period of cleansing and letting go until had clarity.
Sure, you can do healing without attunements. You can also go through life without friends. I’d rather have both. And now that I have cleared my self-doubt, I respect all lineages and traditions of Healing Light, whether they make logical sense to me or not. In the end, the intention is the most important part of any healing system.
The Angelic Crystal Reiki Principles
Below, I have added my take on the Reiki Principles. This is an hommage to Mikao Usui and also a nod to the Law of Attraction which states that affirmations must not contain any negative words.
- Just for today, I AM calm.
- Just for today, I AM filled with the Light of Spirit.
- Just for today, I give thanks for my many blessings.
- Just for today, I work diligently for the Highest God.
- Just for today, I am kind to all living beings.
Wishing you a magical day filled with Light, Love and Laughter!